"I'd gotten the message in my home, starting with my grandfather, that real work, the kind of work that makes you sweat and gets your hands dirty, is a respectable, necessary thing. But I wanted to write- and that didn't qualify. Whenever I told my parents I dreamed of becoming a writer, they said, "Great, but what are you going to do for work?"
I found this article in Self Magazine today (Please follow the link to read the whole article.). I found comfort in Miss Liebegott's words. I too have been struggling with the idea of, is it all enough?
I sometimes doubt my artwork or writing because I do not have a steady paycheck. I have applied to numerous teaching jobs that I felt I needed in order to make my love of art a rational career choice. I think in the back of my mind I always felt that being a teacher sounded better than being an artist. Whenever someone asks me what I do, and I reply that I am an artist, they look at me as if I am an alien from another planet. Just last week when I went to the doctor about my arm, the nurse asked me what my occupation was. I told her that I was an artist. She paused for a long moment, then went on with her other questions. Later on in the conversation she said, "So, do you work or not?" After kindly explaining to her that I make pieces of artwork and sell them in galleries, online, etc., I felt this overwhelming since of worthlessness rush over me.
After reading this article and countless conversations with my supportive husband, I realize just how lucky I really am. I get to do the things that I love and absolutely want to do each and everyday, while sharing adventures with my daughter. I get to experience the "little things" in her life. I may not have a steady paycheck, but I make enough to support my art and my passions. Meanwhile, I have the most wonderful husband that loves being the provider for the household and is my largest supporter (Did I mention that he is a music teacher- his dream job?). I may get down sometimes, but I AM living my dream life. Thank you, God, for my countless blessings.
Are you living YOUR dream life?
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